Surviving Evil

 If any of you are on facebook please feel free to follow my page called Surviving Evil and Beyond.         So we talked about the investigators (Holt and Mayer)  looking at me like I was crazy and talking out of my head.  Once the investigators went to the house and saw the blood on the walls, the room they would label as the torture chamber, the baseball with brain matter on it and so much more they realized I was in my right mind.  They knew they had walked into a horrifying situation.   They were so kind and so amazing on my case.  They did not find Josh at our house so they asked where I thought he would be and I said his brothers.  So they staked out his brothers house and caught Josh and got my oldest daughter to safety.  When they went in to arrest Josh he was cocky and arrogant and I'm sure thought he would be out of jail in no time and nothing would come of all this. Once I found out they had arrested him an...

 While I lay there in the hospital bed I could hear the doctor and nurses calling off all my injuries and I could not believe how many.   I guess I just never realized how much damage Josh had done.   I had swollen legs with multiple open wounds. They were so swollen they thought they were broken.  However they were not.   I had a large hole in my right shoulder and another wound on my left shoulder.  My pinky on my right hand was cut open. My face was bruised and I had two black eyes that were healing.  I also had multiple broken ribs.  As the doctor and nurses named injuries I told them my head was killing me.  The doctor looked at my head and couldn't believe the damage. I had grown my hair to halfway down my back.  The doctor told me he would have to shave my head completely.  I was so upset but knew it had to be done.  As they shaved it I could feel the electric razor touch my head wound and it hurt so bad....

     Anyways we left off with me and the girls walking down the street and me praying a car would stop and pick us up.  As we were walking this little white Toyota pickup pulled up.  He had a little boy in the front seat and said let me take him home and I will come back.  The truck was not big enough for all of us to fit in.  Although I would have squeezed in if we had to.  We kept walking because I knew we had to get help.  We were all beyond weak and had not eaten or drank anything in days.  After a few minutes an SUV came over the hill we were walking up and stopped.  A woman got out and after seeing the shape I was in asked what happened. I told her frantically that my husband had tried to kill me and pointed out our house to her.  She said get in the car.  She helped me get in because I was hardly able to move.  She asked where I wanted to go and I told her the church up the street.  I figured if we could g...

     Well we left off with Josh taking my oldest daughter to school and telling me he was gonna kill me when he got back.  The darkness in his eyes was terrifying.  I knew he meant what he said.   I just said a prayer and asked God to protect me.  Over the years I prayed to God to get me out.   However I was so angry with God for allowing this to happen that I never saw the signs he was giving me to get out.  I was asking for Gods help but I wasn't giving him a chance to answer or listening to what God had to say.  Anyways Josh got the truck started and left to take my oldest daughter to school.   He was mad when he left and I was terrified that my life and the lives of my 2 youngest would be over when he returned home.  It was only about 20 minutes round trip to take her to school and come back home.  I was panicking and then I heard Gods voice for the first time and he said check the door.   I di...

     If anyone reads these and has a similar story to share or has comments on how I am doing please leave comments.   I appreciate any input.  I have to put a warning label here though because this post is graphic and I don't want to cause anyone to have flashbacks of their own.        So when I last posted I had fallen asleep after total and complete exhaustion.  I woke up to Josh standing over me with a pillow on my head and the gun on the other side.  He said he was gonna shoot me and then kill himself.  He had written up a paper to give his brother custody of my kids.  He signed and dated it and made me sign it too.  I begged him not to shoot me and eventually he put the gun down.  He said well that's too easy for you anyways.   I have another idea.        When I sat up there was a table in my bedroom with several items on it.  This included a dremmel, hammer...

     Things between Josh and I just got worse and worse.  I was cleaning the house one day and I picked up a paper.  I opened it and written on it was a recipe for manufacturing Meth.   I was so mad I ripped it up and flushed it down the toilet.  I knew if Josh ever found out I would get in a world of hurt.  While I was working Josh was using and not sleeping at all for days at a time.  He began getting paranoid.  If he heard anything even if it was a creaking sound from the house he would flip out.   Josh would tell me I had someone outside to come after him and he would kill them and me.  Although the reality was there was no one out there.  He shot holes in the wall when he got like that too.  He flipped out one night and grabbed a knife and threatened to cut me again.  He only ended up cutting my cheek just enough to bleed and scar.  Eventually Josh made me quit my job at the nursing home becau...

.  So let's continue on with the story.      So we were last discussing Josh using Meth again and with his brother.  He was getting very paranoid and freaking out from not sleeping for days at a time.  He even bought a gun from a friend to keep in the house.  Although he was a felon and was not allowed to have a gun he did it anyway.  There was several times he would think he heard something outside and he would fire shots through the walls in the living room.  He was really losing it.  I was getting ready to go to my C.N.A class one night and he began accusing me of having a hidden cellphone in the house.  You see Josh didn't allow me to have a phone.  He bought one for our 6 year old daughter along with a Kindle and play station though.   However I could not have one.  Anyways he began tearing the house apart.  Pulled all the clothes out of the dresser and cut open the mattress looking for this imaginary p...

      I think we left off last with Josh asking me to go for a ride and handing me some papers.  So I asked my sister to babysit whose name I am going to leave out because we have to forgive people and I forgave her.  I love her and we have a decent relationship now.  So we drive down the street a short ways and he hands me these folded up letters.  I opened them up and read them.   You will never guess who they were from.  My sister who we took in and I thought loved me and respected me had been writing my husband love letters.  Telling him she wanted to be with him and how I didn't deserve him.  My heart was crushed again.  I mean I would never even think about doing that to my sister.  How could she do this to me?  I told Josh when I got back I was going to fight her.  He told me no she was just lonely and reaching for something    So he told me if I said anything I would get it.  Over the ...

 Sorry I missed yesterday, this cold weather made me lazy.        So we left off about the time we took my 2nd daughter home from the hospital.  Things went good for a while.   One day out of the blue Josh comes in and accuses me of having sex with his mom and stepdad (who were swingers).   I was like what the heck are you freaking kidding me.  See the job Josh was working took him out of town for a few days to a week or two at a time sometimes.  He would check on me all day and send his mom over to check on me too.  He was back using meth as well.  A guy he was working with got him started again.   So he was getting out of his head again and acting crazy again.  After accusing me of having sex with his mom and step dad josh tried to beat me into saying I was guilty of doing it.  I swore up and down that I would never and have never done anything like that.  I never cheated on Josh despit...

      After about 6 months of being together we moved into Josh's brothers mobile home.  It was right behind his moms.  It was our first house together.   Things had been going good.  We hadn't had very many fights.  I thought maybe things were going to stay better.   We got everything moved and Josh was working for his uncle doing lawn mowing and landscaping.  Although during the moving he made me do most of the work.   I did all the heavy lifting with him telling me what to do.  He would go to work and I was not allowed to open the door for anyone.  I just assumed he was being protective.   That is until he started putting a piece of tape on the outside of the door to check and see if I even opened it during the day.  Then one day I was cleaning the house and I found a sock laying next to the toilet.  I picked it up so i could wash it and the realized there was something in it.  ...

 Welcome back.         Have you ever been in a relationship and you knew you needed to get out but felt there was no way?  Have you ever been so manipulated by someone you begin to believe their lies?        So i think yesterday I left off talking about Josh and I moving in together.  Things seemed to be going well.  Josh would come home from work every day and hug me and tell me how much he missed me.  I just thought I was the luckiest woman in the world to have such a great man.  One day my mom called me just to see how I was doing and when I got off the phone Josh grilled me about the call.  He wanted to know exactly what mom said and thought we were talking in code or something.  I just thought he was overreacting so I let it go.  On a day a few weeks later he got mad because i was wearing shorts that he thought were too short.  So he went through my clothes and ripped and cut up any ...

     Let me introduce myself.  I am Lisa Waldon from Mineola, Tx.   I was adopted by two great people at the age of 7 due to sexual abuse happening by my biological moms husband,(my stepdad) at the time.  He also abused my younger two sisters.  Thanks to the love of my adoptive parents Robert and Sue we were removed from a bad situation and given an incredible life.  Sexual abuse is extremely hard to recover from and unfortunately you carry it with you for the rest of your life.  However my adoptive parents introduced us to God.  They got us in to church and involved in many activities at the church.  We were in choir and youth group and traveled with the youth.  We all learned the amazing things that God has done to save us.  We were involved in many extra curricular activities in school as well.  My favorite was being in the band.  I was in marching band as well as the jazz band.  Yes I was a band gee...